Discharge of a Rotting Mind – Another New Year, New Me Post

Hello, all.

Me again

Another day, another update post.

You’ll have to forgive me if the structure of this post seems off because I am currently writing this on my smartphone and my thumbs are cramping immensely.

Anyway, I’ve got another post in a sea of post-New Years related content, to give you guys an idea of what I’ve got planned as of right now.

Fiction

I started working on novels again and my goal for this year is to finish at least two, this doesn’t mean they’ll be published, but I do want them written before the end of 2020.

That’s all I’m going to say right now, but I do want some blog posts on here to relate to whatever it is I’m working on, whether it be fun facts I’ve learned while researching or facts about settings that either my books take place in or are inspired by.

Which brings me to my next topic.

Blog

You’ll notice some new things will be coming to the blog this year, humble reader. We’ll still be doing our usual reviews, discussion posts, flash fiction stories, and so on, but I’ll also be taking on some new tasks. The most prominent one you will see is posts about travelling. Yeah, this will be bizarre, but, hear me out.

I plan on writing travel posts that closely relate to my work, both new and old. I’m doing this to really just get some more regular content here as well as build a portfolio for freelance work that I’ll be doing on the side of my fiction writing. I’ll be talking about everything from cities to states to, maybe, countries. However, if this seems to be doing more harm than good, then I will break off from this idea and turn it into its own separate blog.

Reviews & Flash Fiction

Other than that, the blog will still be made up of reviews and updates similar to this one, but I am going to try and branch off into more products and put a bit more focus on novel reviews as well.

As for flash fiction, I’ll still be doing this, but I don’t have anything lined up right now. I’ve been focusing more on writing books and reviews than I have really anything else. But, rest assured, this will still be a staple of the blog.

Conclusion

With all this in mind, there are a few things that I want to do outside of this blog that will help other creators and more potential readers. However, I don’t want this to be guaranteed in case things don’t work out the way that I need them to.

Well, 2020 is going to be a crazy year for me. Mainly in my personal life, but I’ll be doing a lot of growing as well. I mean, I already feel significantly older than I did just last year and that is kind of worrying to some degree.

Anyway, thanks for reading.

Stay rotten everybody.

Discharge of a Rotting Mind (Updates) – Changes & Other Things

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Hello all, I hope you’re well.

In today’s post, I’ll be addressing, primarily the blog, my personal situation and announcing a timeframe set for Mr. Fatal’s Greatest Hits. 

You may have noticed that I made a slight change to the update title. This was to match the picture. I have no shame in this confession.

I won’t pad too much on this post so let’s just jump right into it.

New Stuff, Coming Soon!

  • Character Analysis: This will be experimental for this blog. I want to dissect fictional characters and see what makes them tick and why we are so drawn to them. This is something I do on my YouTube channel as well so I’ll be fluctuating this type of content between the two
  • Short Story Analysis: Same deal with fictional characters, I want to see what draws us to various short stories and/or talk about some of the meanings behind them and so forth
  • Poetry: If you’ve followed me from my various social media platforms, you’ll know that I have a poetry book published. A little odd considering all of my other work is horror. Anyway, I still write poems when I can’t really think of anything for my fiction or if I have a certain line in my head that I really like. I would like to share some of these poems with you guys, to have even more content for the blog.

Blog Stories

I’ve got some really loopy stuff in mind for stories that will be coming down the road. What will you be getting? Well, I’ve been watching a lot of B-horror movies and would like to start experimenting with this story type in writing. I believe the intellectuals call it ‘bizarro’ fiction.

I’ll be honest, I have no stories finished at this time, but am working on one right now that is a real treat for the nostalgic kind from the 80’s and 90’s.

Reviews

I currently have a handful of novel reviews written up and have been doctoring them. In all honesty, novel reviews are much more difficult than film or video game reviews because there is just so much ground to cover with them. I know I said I would try and review every book that I have read in the month of June, but that’s proving to be a bit more than what I had bargained for. I plan to publish at least four more novel reviews before my read-a-thon ends and I’ve got some pretty good stories to talk about here.

Next, are film reviews. I did have a few written but haven’t had the chance to edit them, considering I’ve been focusing on the novel reviews. However, I will be posting a few more somewhere down the road in the near future. So, if you enjoy my film reviews more, fear not.

Video game reviews, on the other hand, will no longer be posted on this blog. I have a second blog dedicated to gaming. Reviews, collecting, news, highlights, and collaborations related to the gaming community will be going here. The blog’s name is Game Quest and my goal is to fuse one of my favorite hobbies with my passion for writing to talk about things that would otherwise be out of place on this blog. I won’t be focusing as much on the horror genre and the community; I also won’t talk about my writing on Game Quest as much as this blog. So, if you enjoyed the video game reviews I have published on this blog or if you like gaming as a whole, I urge you to go follow Game Quest at: gamequesting.wordpress.com . Oh, and if you have a strong passion for gaming like I do and would love to collaborate with a group of like-minded people, please let me know, I’m currently looking for a bunch of contributors to help out with that blog.

Mr. Fatal’s Greatest Hits

Got a few more image teasers ready to go to share all over my social media. The manuscript’s first half is going through its second phase of editing right now, which is pretty cool.

I would really like to share one more story before the novel is released, but I’ll have to decide which one that will be.

Anyway, Mr. Fatal’s Greatest Hits will probably be released in fall of this year or, at the very latest, early 2020.

Personal Life

Time to get personal here and my apologies for doing so.

I recently started a new job that involves working overnights. I’ve been spending the past week and a half trying to change my sleeping schedule. I haven’t had to work for a few months now, considering my writing had sustained me. Unfortunately, I must return to having a day– night– job and adjusting my body to the new schedule has taken a lot out on me. On top of that, I’ve got a lot of family stuff going on and a vacation coming up pretty soon. Why am I telling you this, humble reader? Because the content on my blog will not be as regular as I’d like it to be. This is only temporary, mainly until my body can adjust to the new schedule. No, I’m certainly not going hungry or about to be homeless, I’ve just made bigger financial commitments than what my writing income can handle; commitments that are going to better the lives of my future family and my own.

I won’t go on much longer. My apologies if it sounded like I was venting, especially since I stated that I didn’t want to do that with this blog. Don’t worry, personal life updates will be very far and few between, they will not become a regular thing on this blog.

Conclusion

Well, that’s all for today’s update post. Got a lot of great stuff coming to you guys soon and we’re on the verge of getting a massive overhaul on this blog!

As always, thank you guys for reading this blog and supporting me in the ways that you do. You guys are frikin’ awesome.

See you guys again soon.

30 Days of Night: Fear of the Dark by Tim Lebbon – Novel Review

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Introduction

Hello all, I can finally publish the first review of the reading marathon and today I’ll be reviewing Tim Lebbon’s 30 Days of Night: Fear of the Dark just as the title of this post suggests.

For those of you unfamiliar, 30 Days of Night is an expanded universe of vicious vampires sprawled out across various mediums, ranging from films to graphic novels, to actual novels.

I’ve always been a big fan of the franchise since 30 Days of Night made vampires actually scary again. I’ve read all of the books up to Fear of the Dark, seen the movie a ton of times, and have a pretty sizeable collection of memorabilia. Anyway, on with the review!

Plot Summary

Marty Volk has a guardian angel. Who would that guardian angel be you might ask? His once believed to be, deceased sister Rose. When his sister vanished, he was twelve years old and for five years since then, she has protected him from all sorts of danger, sticking to the shadows until one night when one of her own kind tries to attack Marty. This is when she makes herself known, and, obviously, Marty tries to tell his family that he’s seen his sister and this, of course, does not make them happy. Anyway, Rose has been with a group of vampires that had taken her in and helped her cope with her new… ‘condition’. Following this attack, there is a constant back and forth with Rose’s primal desires and her desires to keep her brother and family safe. Meanwhile, Rose’ posse constantly desires her attention and tries to convince her to let her family be killed by hostile vampires.

The Review

So, let me start this off by saying that this is probably my least favorite 30 Days of Night novel, and also my least favorite Tim Lebbon novel. This does not mean it is an awful story, however. I just know that the series is capable of so much more and that Tim Lebbon is too.

The novel started off strong, lots of great detail, character development, and so on. The novel lost me about halfway through, however. It just felt like it was dragging on.

At the start of the novel, Lebbon utilized some really powerful imagery and emotion that hooked me immediately. He left me excited for what was to come too and he had me there for, well, the whole novel. Every time I’d complete a chapter, I’d expect something monumental to happen. Once I finished the book, I was still left wanting and that didn’t feel very good to me.

Tim did, however, really nail the vampires of 30 Days of Night making all of them, except Rose, animals just trying to survive. With Rose, he had her constantly battling with her primal urges and the love for her family, but that’s all she really was– a constant conflict and that’s good, to an extent. With this story, I really wanted her to find that peace but she never got it.

Speaking of vampires, I want to talk about Rose’s clique. Mainly their leader Francesco. It would be fair to assume that they are more of an antagonist than the vampires trying to kill Rose’s family. Sure, they want to kill bad vampires & people, but when they’re alone they’re constantly downplaying and diminishing Rose’s abilities and emotions. It’s odd because these guys are supposed to be the ones keeping her from going feral, right?

Now let’s talk about Marty. I genuinely dislike him. This is a problem because he is the main character of the story. His sections were a chore to lug through. The buildup was stale and he felt like the cliche ‘troubled’ kid in any movie ever. I just did not like him, plain and simple.

Lebbon did a fairly good job with portraying Rose and Marty’s parents’ constant grief for their daughter and struggle with their defiant son. They’re primarily just obstacles for Marty, however, often feeling like extra padding to hit the word count to justify a novel.

Now that we’ve got all of the noteworthy characters out of the way, I want to talk about Lebbon’s writing style in Fear of the Dark.

As with any novels written by Tim, he has a profound way of describing emotions and details that you can’t help but enjoy his prose. The opening of the novel has some of my favorite character descriptions and world-building in the entire 30 Days of Night series. Once I hit the middle of the novel, however, it felt like Lebbon got bored with the concept and really just wanted to rush to the end. While the ending was solid, it still left so much to be desired.

Conclusion

I still remain a massive fan of the series, but I don’t think I’ll be revisiting this novel again. I see why this one was incredibly hard to find compared to the rest of Lebbon’s work, it just doesn’t carry the same passion that his other novels had.

To summarize, the novel just feels empty.

Rose was a fantastic character, however and when the story got good, it got really good, but there was just too much ‘nothing’ for me to pick this book up again.

2.5/5

The Inspiration Behind the Character Jack aka “Mr. Fatal”

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Hello all, good to see you again.

Today I wanted to talk a little bit about one of my most infamous characters, Jack Beaumont aka “Mr. Fatal”. For those of you who haven’t read Born Again yet Mr. Fatal is an evil, sadistic director of pornography and snuff films. He gave our hero James a pretty rough time and has a history of doing some incredibly awful things to many other people, simply for financial gain. His ‘films’ range from murder, to rape and even to pedophilia; he sells each of his movies for incredibly high prices to anyone willing to pay for them. The sad part is that business is booming for him. He uses his status as a porn director and former Hollywood director to justify his immense wealth generated from the snuff industry. He has no regard for anyone other than himself, even going as far as to bury his own son in his backyard underneath the flowers. All he cares about is power and wealth and putting on a great show for his consumers.

So that’s the basics of his personality, he’s a pretty seedy individual, to say the least. I’m not here to give a brief biography, however. I’m here to talk about what inspired me to create this nasty human being.

Literary Frustration

Let’s cover the biggest, and perhaps, the most egotistical inspiration for this character.

At the time of writing Born Again I was extremely frustrated with the lack of responses I was getting from my previous work. I wanted the same reactions I got for Never Forgive Me, Never Forget Me and I just didn’t get it. Sales were slowing down, reader base was dropping and I didn’t know what to do. I figured I would try and rebrand myself and focus more on the extreme aspects of my writing. Thus I was given the idea of a man who had it all and then lost it all, only to sink in an evil pit of sorts. Mr. Fatal started out as an author, but I couldn’t think of anything to revolve around this fact. Eventually, I settled with a washed-up director who became so self-obsessed and frustrated with the world that rejected his Hollywood films. He became greedy and violent and BAM Jack Beaumont was created.

So, in a way, Jack is the rendition of my frustration for a world that just refused to pick up my books. It was childish, yes, but it created one of my favorite characters in my little universe.

Michael Bay

Love him or hate him, you can’t deny that Michael Bay has become a kind of meme in the film community with his over-the-top explosives and action sequences, the way he portrays military and the fact he’s always got to have an attractive girl that he can exploit in his movies. Still, he is much wealthier than me and is almost a household name at this point. People still see his movies and buy them and he’s given massive budgets for his films.

So Mr. Fatal is, basically, like a ‘what if’ scenario for Michael Bay. If society stopped seeing his movies altogether, what would Michael Bay do? Probably porn with fancy editing and an attractive porn star that is saved from the giant robot dong. Would he do snuff? Probably not, but porn is certainly something I’d see him doing.

The Bully of the Playground

“It’s my way or the highway” mentality.

Do you remember when you were a kid playing with your friends? Maybe you were playing cops and robbers or tag. Perhaps you’ve had that one kid in your group who always has to make up rules to benefit them? That’s fine. That’s a kid thing to do. Now let’s say this same kid is also the playground bully who doesn’t let other kids come slide down the slide closest to him, simply because that slide is the biggest on the playground. That’s how I see Jack. He’ll start off with a simple set of rules, then add more on as the film progresses. James, the protagonist of Born Again, was given a fairly simple set of rules when he was cast as Jack’s leading man, reach point B from point A, killing anyone in his path. As time went on, however, Jack began adding on more and more rules, eventually making it almost impossible for James to succeed. Oh, and the slide in this scenario? Is the wife and daughter of our unlucky protagonist.

While the playground is actually a city, Jack certainly resembles an elementary bully in the most extreme sense.

Conclusion

I created Mr. Fatal as a villain with the sole intention to shock and disgust. I want readers to question what could make a man so brutal? Funny thing is, pride and greed can drive a man to the most extreme version of himself and, in my opinion, Mr. Fatal has peaked in that sense.

He’s the symbol of human brutality and greed and that was my intended purpose for him. He is currently my favorite villain I have written, simply because he is so different than the rest of my characters (as he should be).

Hopefully, this post gives you guys a little more insight into the character. He’ll be undergoing even more development that you guys will see when Mr. Fatal’s Greatest Hits is released in the near future.


Before I go, I wanted to thank you guys and welcome some of the new followers on this blog. I hope you all find some enjoyment here.

I’ll be having more posts released in the coming days.

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Anyway, thanks to everyone, it’s awesome having such a strong fan base. Seriously, I can’t say it enough.

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The Man in my Basement

“What day is it?” he asks.

I say nothing. I can’t remember. I slide his food underneath the door. A cockroach, yellow like the end of a cigarette, crawls out from his room. I walk away and return to the kitchen to fix myself a bologna sandwich. I feed him better than I feed myself.

On the counter, I see a bottle of pain meds. Maybe that would be good? No, it’ll probably be too painful.

I go to my living room and look at the front door. It’ll be hard, but it’s possible. I sit down at my computer desk as a rat races past my foot. No problem.

I turn on my computer and try to message my friends. Nobody answers. I try to message my mother, but I forgot she died last month. Then I message the whore that I use to fuck every other day, she responds by sending me a picture of her naked body.

I relieve my freshly grown erection, then stand up and return to the kitchen. I retrieve the set of keys from the drawer and return to my bedroom. I open up my closet door and peek inside at the noose hanging from the ceiling. Should be strong enough and the most painless way.

I leave my room and return to the basement door. I slide the keys underneath to the man I’ve kept in my basement. He doesn’t have the answers I’ve sought for so long. His music was all fake. He doesn’t know what it’s like being someone like me. He can consider this his birthday present.

I return to my bedroom closet and perch myself on the chair in there. I slip the noose around my head and kick the chair underneath me. It’s no problem. It’ll only hurt for a second.

My Top 10 ‘The Twilight Zone’ Episodes

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#10: Twenty-Two

Twenty-Two is the terrifying tale of a woman in a hospital suffering from exhaustion. She has a recurring dream about taking a lift to the hospital morgue, where a cold and calm nurse waits for her with the same statement,

“Room for one more, honey.”

What I like so much about this entry is the incredibly different tone it sets away from the rest of the series, mainly due to budgeting issues. For instance, the entire episode was filmed on videotape, making the acting and the musical score surreal and unsettling in a way that, despite having a much bigger budget, the other episodes of the series just couldn’t mirror.

The most notable thing a viewer might take from this episode is the staggering powerlessness we feel alongside Liz, Twenty-Two‘s protagonist.

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#9: The Living Doll

A frustrated father goes to battle with his stepdaughter’s talking doll, whose quotes are “I hate you” and, more famously, “I’m going to kill you”.

Something straight out of the terrors of a child looking at one of his grandma’s antique dolls late at night, The Living Doll is a terrifying look at domestic abuse. I appreciate how well it conveyed its message as well, considering that was a very sensitive topic of the time.

Talking Tina, the doll in this episode, is a guardian angel of sorts, promising to protect the family from the abusive father.

What makes The Living Doll one of my favorite episodes is the message it sends to the viewer.

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#8: The Invaders

A woman in a rural farmhouse discovers a small spaceship filled with tiny alien creatures on the roof of her home. What ensues is a suspenseful battle between her and the creatures.

The Invaders is basically an episode-length climax in a sci-fi horror film, constant tension and conflict make for a very exciting episode that doesn’t disappoint with the series’ trademark ending twist.

The acting is fantastic and perhaps the best thing about this episode. Agnes Moorehead, best known as Endora from Bewitched, really lets her talent shine in The Invaders, as it relies heavily on her ability to convey emotion through her body language, given the lack of dialogue.

A personal note I’d like to make is the overall design of the episode, if you’re a fan of those B-movie sci-fi films from the 50’s as I am, then you’ll immediately fall in love with the design of the ship and the creatures. The spacemen look like a modified wind-up toy and the spaceship seems as though it’s built out of a bowl and a serving platter, complete with the thin wires attached to the disc to make a spinning motion.

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#7: Nightmare at 20,000 Feet

Nightmare at 20,000 Feet is one of the most well-known episodes in the series, on the count of the numerous parodies made of it, ranging from The Simpsons to Saturday Night Live. Also, it is a well-known episode for its leading actor, William Shatner.

This episode follows a man who recently recovered from a nervous breakdown, riding an airplane and eventually becoming convinced that a creature, one that only he can see, is destroying the plane from the outside.

Nightmare at 20,000 Feet is a brilliant tale of psychological horror and looks at how we let our imagination get the better of us on most occasions. Shatner’s extremely emotive style brings the magic to this episode, as does the iconic, ridiculous looking gremlin.

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#6: A Nice Place to Visit

A criminal named Henry Francis Valentine dies in a shootout with police, he awakes in the afterlife where every one of his wishes come true.

A very basic premise that goes much deeper as the story of A Nice Place to Visit unfolds.

In order to explain why I love this episode so much, I will also have to spoil it. You’ve been warned!

I love the characters in this episode, the atmosphere, and the message of “be careful what you wish for”. We see a criminal gunned down and seems to enter Heaven afterward. Everything he wishes for comes true, he gets a beautiful penthouse, women, objects, and the ability to win at every gambling machine he plays. At first, he loves it and it seems to be a perfect eternity, but as time goes on he begins to get bored of getting whatever he wants and realizes that he misses the thrill of the chase, essentially. When he asks his ‘guide’ to stop allowing him to get whatever he wants, it is revealed that having his every wish granted is actually his punishment for being a bad man in life. He realizes that this Heaven isn’t actually Heaven at all but it is, in fact, ‘the other place’ as stated by Henry’s guide.

I just felt that was such a genius idea. We think we will be so happy having everything we want in life given to us, but we won’t, eventually, we’ll be overcome with boredom and lose the joy and excitement of life itself. Humans enjoy the thrill of the hunt, it’s in our basic survival instincts.

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#5: The Masks

The Twilight Zone has always specialized in picking out human flaws and examining them under a microscope; in The Masks, it’s no different.

A wealthy and dying Jason Foster, played by the talented Robert Keith, invites his greedy heirs to a party where he instructs them to wear a series of masks he had made especially for them. They must continue to wear them through the night, and if they refuse, they would be cut from their inheritance. Well, this is The Twilight Zone so of course, these masks are imbued with a special power; the power to transform their wearer’s face into the face of the mask, acting as a kind of metaphysical mold.

The Masks is perhaps one of the most cynical and darkly humorous episodes of the series. I also would like to mention how beautifully shallow it is, simplistic in its idea and fantastic in its execution.

The lighting is timed well, fitting the situation and the characters properly. The overall set design is warm, yet foreboding and secretive. The costume and makeup design is the centerpiece of this episode, managing to be uncomfortably realistic.

All in all, I appreciate this episode for its simplicity and focus on its design.

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#4: Eye of the Beholder

Another iconic episode, Eye of the Beholder presents us with exactly what its title implies; beauty in the eye of the beholder.

We are introduced to a woman whose face is wrapped with numerous layers of bandages. According to the mysterious medical personnel of the episode, this woman is afflicted with a horrendous deformity. In this world, people with her same ‘deformity’ are left to live in isolation, as it appears to be illegal in this society.

This episode contains a lot of backstory for such a short amount of time and executes it flawlessly.

The cinematography is also fantastic and meticulously crafted. The lighting is careful to obstruct the staff’s faces as is the camera, during the first segment of the episode and, later, offer more revealing angles after the climax of the episode.

Now the climax itself is one of the best in television history. The doctor removes the woman’s bandages, carefully doing so to build some breath stealing suspense. When he finishes it is revealed that the woman is actually normal looking, in our eyes, yet the doctor gets upset and states that the procedure was a ‘failure’. The woman screams and the doctors go to sedate her, revealing their pig-like mouths, which is also the apparent norm in this world. The woman escapes and runs from the personnel, running into other nurses and doctors who have the same snouts. We see a dictator-like character on a screen preaching about conformity, revealing that this setting is a dystopian one. She reaches a room with one of her own kind in the room and it seems that even she is terrified of him.

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#3: In Praise of Pip

In Praise of Pip holds a special place for me because of its passionate storytelling.

The episode follows a bookie named Max Phillips who hears that his son, a soldier stationed in South Vietnam, has been wounded and is dying. On the other side of the world, Max finds himself in a reflective mood and pays off a young kids debt to his boss and, as you can guess, this doesn’t end well as Max is promptly shot. Max is soon given the opportunity to spend one last hour with his son at an amusement park, except his son is ten again. Eventually, Max offers his life in exchange for saving his son and, like him, mother nature claims her debt and Max dies, but Pip is saved.

The talented Jack Klugman gives an impassioned performance as Max and really shines in his scenes with the young Billy Mumy. Every moment of the episode after the father and son have their reunion is heart-wrenching in the most beautiful way and that is precisely why it is one of my favorites.

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#2: Walking Distance

This one is so great because it plays on a flaw that doesn’t really feel like a flaw at all: nostalgia.

A man revisits his childhood– literally. Martin Sloan, a VP of an ad agency travels back in time, arriving just a mile and a half outside of his childhood home. When he arrives he runs into his child self and his parents, he realizes that he has traveled back in time.

What is so fantastic about this episode is the effect it has on its viewers, especially the elders who find themselves thinking about going back to their childhood where each day was good and all we had to worry about was what fun things we could do that day. In summary, it’s an emotional episode, to say the least; a fantasy, I’m sure, many of us think about.

The ending of this episode tells us that there are moments in our adulthood that are worth enjoying and if we don’t go out and seize those moments, we’re likely to miss them; and while we shouldn’t forget the good times we’ve had, we should also not forget to have them now.

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#1: Time Enough at Last

This is, perhaps, the most famous episode of The Twilight Zone. It’s also the first one I ever saw, so, perhaps I might have a little bit of nostalgia blindness, but other people seem to agree with me when I say this is the best episode of the series.

Time Enough at Last is the story of Henry Bemis, a timid bank teller who is so incredibly unhappy but finds solace in reading. Society sees his immense love of books to be a complete waste of time. His wife, his boss, and even his customers see him as a loser, despite Henry being full of creative ideas. A dreamer brought down from the clouds by the daily meanderings of life. Somewhere in the middle of the episode, Henry locks himself in his work’s vault to read his books in peace and secrecy. Suddenly, there is a massive explosion overhead and Henry emerges to find himself as the only surviving person after a nuclear holocaust. When all seems lost, he prepares to commit suicide until his eyes come across a library filled with books; he is overjoyed when he realizes the endless amount of reading time he has ahead of him. SPOILER WARNING: as he goes to sit down and pick up his first book and he stumbles forward, forcing his glasses to fall from his face and shatter on the concrete. He is unable to see, unable to read.

Time Enough at Last is the greatest story of irony and hopelessness. Where other movies and television shows rewarded the people who seemed to deserve it, Time Enough at Last states that karma is nothing more than a word and that life is, remarkably, “unfair”.

The set design is incredible, the characters are unforgettable, and the writing is one-of-a-kind even to this day. Other shows and even movies have tried to mirror the impact of Time Enough at Last but could never quite hit the mark.

This episode is incredibly haunting and has stuck with me since the first time I saw it. This is because it tells us what we don’t want to hear, we don’t want to stop dreaming; we want our fantasies to be real but Time Enough at Last is telling us to not let them take over our lives, while also condemning those who live too much in the real world. It is staggeringly cruel and really hurts the little dreamer in all of us, pleading with Henry. I feel shivers every time I watch Henry’s timid, childlike character crumple and break down at the end of the episode. All in all, it is justifiably the best episode in the series for me.

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The Raven Woman

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“Come, child. Partake in my fruit.” The woman with the black wings states.

Have I died? I don’t want to die. I want my mommy and daddy.

“Are you an angel?” I ask.

“I can satisfy those strong, currents of desire if you choose to accept my fruit.” She replies.

I look up at her eyes and see nothing there, she’s also missing her nose, but she’s got a big smile on her face and her long black hair is really pretty.

She holds an apple out in her hand. I’m really hungry.

“In these bereft lands, I shall guide and protect you.”

I thought dying would be scary, but I feel okay. I hope mommy and daddy will forgive me. I didn’t know that a bad man would hurt me.

“Why do you look yellow and where are your clothes?” I ask.

“Do you refuse my fruit?” she replies.

“No.”

I open my mouth and she holds the apple on my tongue. I bite down and the entire apple crushes in my mouth.

I don’t feel satisfied. I’m still so very hungry. Her hand– I bite down and rip my head backward. She shouts and her blood is spilling everywhere.

I must punish the Raven Woman. Her black wings are false. I must devour her.

I open my mouth wide and swallow her whole.

I feel my limbs begin to tear away from themselves and a burning in my back. Am I growing wings of my own? These are black like the Raven Woman.

I close my eyes and open them again and find myself flying through the sky.

In my belly, the Raven Woman and her apple become one and they swell, making me a fat bird.

I hear a child crying. The anguish is substantial.

I shall offer them my fruit.